(d) Emotional awareness and coping
Coelho writes openly about his feelings and situations are described in terms of their emotional impact, such as in the beginning when Coelho describes his unhappiness and dissatisfaction in his life. This emotional imbalance builds the foundation (Coelho, 2011, pp. 1-18) for the decision to go on a journey. During the stop-over in Ekaterinburg, Coelho, for example, refers again to his feelings: “Since I left London, I have been a different person, feeling calm and happy on my journey, back to my kingdom and my soul” (Coelho, 2011, p. 85). Coelho explains that his emotional awareness even increased since his visit to the Aleph (Coelho, 2011, p. 91). The final situation in which Coelho visits the Aleph with Hilal is described, as well as a very emotional situation for Coelho in which his voice is choked with tears (Coelho, 2011, p. 296). Emotional awareness and coping are described throughout the journey, proving that emotions are highly intense in “Aleph”.
The plot of emotional awareness is reached when Coelho experiences that he not only remembers past lives, but that he is “re-living that time” (Coelho, 2011, p. 256). He describes his crying: “I am crying, because there is no other way of showing what I feel: I AM ALIVE. I am alive in every pore and every cell of my body. I am alive. I was never born and never died” (Coelho, 2011, p. 256). The direct emotional expression is connected to being alive, being in the body, the experience of interconnectedness. Even after the last common experience of Coelho and Hilal in “Aleph”, Coelho’s emotions are intense. However, he is unable to explain what he feels, but finds a metaphor of the “voice that is choked with tears” (Coelho, 2011, p. 296) to express his deep emotional experiences. Through his emotional awareness, Coelho regains holistic wellness and improves his understanding of what contributes to his wellness and what decreases it.